DRAMA HEADACHE DISEASE

Its either Drama heartache vernaly disease.                                                                                  DRAMA with friends trying to backstab you.                                                                                   Throwing hate at you.    It took others to come at you to realize no friends was really down for you.        You'll realize the loyal ones eventually. When somehings wrong you want them to rush through. Be your knight and shinning armor (no one). No ones here (I mean there).   During the great days everyones complaints fade away. Went agaisnt every feeling that told me no don't be friend.      Gave you a chance to prove it wrong.                                                                                                 Ran out of chances (the end).                                                                                                                                                               Its true the clodest ones to you give you the deepest scars you can't hide.                                       You talk with pride.    Your body language gives you up throw in your flag. no remorse for a soul  but your own.  HEARTACHE when you come to terms that the one you hate, Is the one you'd date. The one you stood up for talked more shit than he stood for. Wanted that safe zone. Yurned for thst protection I never had. Im pushing the door closed on All the lies the pain. Back agaisnt the door feet standing firm. Crying my heart out... Screaming for it to fade out Noooo!! Noooo!! I beg for it to stop... Then I come back to reality. Realize it was only words said me. Come to terms there like beatings hitting me. Never understood on how it hurt. Till someone made you point it out  see how they'd hurt you more than you saw. A broken heart in a broken home. Yes my body is were I reside but isn't my home. Not where I want to live.                                                                                                               In the beginning there was life.                                                                                                               Towards the end you wished for death at your last breath you hoped for life.                              your  DISEASE took me in at my time of sadness. Lost cause demons around applaude. I couldn't find my worth in the world. Took advantage of a little girl. Passed down from place to place. Still no space for me no sanity. As I stood alone I felt the shadow that iced the fire of the troubled soul.