Drowning

Because I love you you said

looking through my phone to see if any possible suitors

were threatening your property

Because I love you you said

telling me I couldn't go out with my friends dressed like that

because I might get hit on 

and you only want the best for me

Because I love you you said

grabbing my wrist as I try to go to a study session

saying you don't trust my friend of years to keep his hands off

Because I love you you said

as you gripped my waist too tight in the store 

when I smiled at the cashier

Because I love you you said

as bruises both emotional and physical formed

my friends hating me as I fell farther and farther away

as I kept being dragged towards you

telling me that if I loved you too

I would do what you asked.

But because I've been made to believe I love you

I'm drowning and I would rather die

than betray your unfailing fidelity

so I swallow the water obediently

telling myself that I'm doing this

Because I love you 

and because if I go

I don't know if anyone else will love me too