Drowning

In a room full of people, 

I feel all alone. 

A sea full of bodies, 

Yet I am drowning in my mind.  

I am surrounded by “friends” 

but somehow always left behind. 

Maybe I was destined to be thrown overboard. 

I see the ship's crew, and they are watching me. 

I am left sinking into the dark sea. 

Deserted, I remain. 

My dependency is washing away.

I do not sit around waiting for someone to wipe away my tears. 

I do not need anyone to help me conquer my fears. 

 I am all alone. 

Wild and free. 

For once in my life no one is around to hurt me. 

I spoke too soon. 

I am my worst enemy. 

I never taught myself how to swim. 

I cannot tred the sea full of my own destructive thoughts. 

These powerful waves are overtaking me. 

I am screaming on the inside,

but silent on the outside. 

I whisper quietly

but I would rather shout. 

I do not want to be a helpless victim the world needs to save. 

So I stay sunken at the bottom of the dead sea.