drowning

you wake up and it's heavy like a breath of stale air people stare and no one's there and it's too much to bare you wake up and it's like the world is on your back and as hard as you try to get cut some slack it's a full blown attack and you're tired of combat you wake up and you're too tired to hold a gun you're flat out done and you've spent so long in the dark you've forgotten the sun you wake up filled with dread about the life you have led and the things you have said and you think for a second 'i'm better off dead' you wake up and in the dark you notice in a fright that something's not right it looks kind of bright and you see a glimmer of... light? you wake up and you sense something new out of the blue and with hope so few you wonder for a sec can this even be true? you wake up and breathe and it's okay to be wrong and you don't have to be strong you just need to focus on moving along you wake up and you smile and you're the lightest you've felt in a very long while and you suddenly have the strength to swim one more mile