The Drug That Was His Love

I don’t know why I let him get to me like this I was young dumb and in love So I was blind to the signs that’s why im feeling like this So I guess it’s my fault I let him get inside And manipulate my mind I let him toy with my insides My feelings intertwined With lust and confusion This drug i'm abusing The drug was his love And i couldn't get enough So you know i kept using I try to put him down But somehow i get stuck His lies are so slick They roll off his tongue so quick I slowly move him towards my lips And slip back in his control I get higher with every puff i blow I fall harder with feelings i can't control Yet he makes me feel so low I just can't let go Because every time that he speaks With every word in his speech i feel chills down my spine His words were like smoke They’re clouding my thoughts and my judgement To judge if i should be with him Or we should just be friends Or nothing at all Little does he know His drugs wearing off now i can see him for who he is Even though he's in disguise I can see him guiding me towards my own demise So i figured its time For me to say my final and last goodbyes So I try to put him down again but i get stuck again i just can't stop he's the only thing i know I've been hooked for so long i have nowhere to go But back to the drug that was his love So I just keep holding on I loved this boy to much l lost myself Hating myself so much i didn't care about my health And i didn't wanna move on Even though i knew i should but Fuck how i'm feeling at the moment i'll be good. As long as i'm with him The hurt i'm feeling can't compare To what i'll be feeling if he ain't there So in my mind he's the only thing that makes since He's the only thing that can lead to my happiness All i wanted was for us to last But in ur life its seems i come last And now our relationship is in the past Which sucks so bad My feelings for you were so vast It's crazy how fast we crashed our relationship is dead now I think about you all the time i can't get it out my head How you make me feel This drug that i'm on make things seem so real But i'm now i'm starting to realizes that every thing u ever said were REAL LIES And it's so crazy Never thought you'd be the one to play me Leave and replace me This drug got me goin crazy I'm tired of being here for you when you were never there for me So ima just leave you forever in my memory From this day on im clean And I promise i'll never turn back To the drug... that was his love.