drunk words - for j.l.

tonight you told me

you were glad you learned that

i am smarter than i sometimes

appear to be

that i was some kind of crazy

ultra liberal

ultra feminist

but was also

ultra willing

to understand

to know

to listen

and i know 

that i would never want to

be yours

and you would never want to 

be mine

but i thank you

for reminding me

that i never want a man who

cannot only actively accept

but also love

my overwhelming passion

how i can understand

catecholamines and

rape culture and

countless other bits and pieces

some might render useless

but will also love

how i constantly live on the edge

of an eventual mental breakdown

i want a man who

will want me to be nothing more

and nothing less

thank you for reminding me

that i want a partner

who will accept all i am

not some projected image

of who i should be