Dumb Youthless

I have been a young lady for 10 years but too old for that for 19 There was never a second where I wasn't checking to make sure I acted my age though I have never seen someone my age take the stage Always too old to be this too young to do that trying to find the woman that wasn't cat being young was just an excuse for not knowing what to do for not having to pour your own juice. Youth is a mistake we all make, a blow we all take A tool that makes the world shake to find what it is made of is what I was told, that nothing really starts to fall into place until you can call yourself old. I have been a mess for 19 years I have known how to clean it up for 1 I have stopped squinting from when I stared at the sun I've started walking because I know I wasn't meant to run. I have stopped trying to find what makes me a real grownup by looking through tropes because everything on that list I have answered with a resounding NOPE. I have stopped