At the dusk of a score

Its been 20 long years A lot of cheers with some tears and other fears Life has been kind Though occasionally, I have been blind The world changed me As I changed with the world In anger, I have hurled In pain, I have curled In confusion, I have whirled Yet life has always unfurled Denial was the easy way out Survival was never the doubt Senselessness was a big foggy cloud Recklessness meant joining the heedless crowd Shades of depravity color my character past Hues of perceptivity tint my better present It hurts but the past has passed Fingers crossed; the present is to recast Hope the future lies in contrast The possibilities out there remain vast Life has no rewinds or forwards It always unfolds itself at its own pace Let go of the time and aim upwards Look around you: it's all space