Dying Mind

I sit here,                        

Watching my life disappear before my eyes,                      

January,           

Febuary,             

July,            

November,            

December,

I can't remember yesterday,         

I can't comprehend tomorrow,          

Trapped in my dying mind,           

Living a life I don't remember,          

This anxiety is destroying my mind,                       

Familiar people surround me,          

But names elude me,          

Promises made,           

Are Promises forgotten,
Living a life I don't want,          

Feeling like I always wanted to do something different,      

Be something different,          

When I don't even remember wanting it,

March,             

June,            

October,           

Fighting for a life I want,          

But don't even know I want it,          

Who I was yesterday,           

Was murdered by this dying mind,         

Who I am today,           

Will not exist tomorrow,

April,             

May,             

August,            

September,            

Who I am today,           

Is already forgotten,           

Who I am tomorrow,           

Will never have existed.