Dying Twice

Let's count the ways I died today. I hope it's entertaining. To any sad and angry souls. Who happen to be reading. Number one I died, Today, When you bought a Valentine. Last Friday it was meant for me, But lot's can change in a few hours time. You bought it cos he's sharp And he's got lots of sex appeal. I suppose I should have figured But I thought that things were real. Number two. I'm walking Down the hall From behind the corner Where I've known My death was going on. And I know damn well you saw me walking by But you turned your head away. So sorry if it hurts to see me Since you abandoned me And I'm sure it'll all seem trivial I'm sure I'll look back and laugh. But scars will last and marr the mind The pain is always real. I know that pain has been before The pain was real you knew. But that was back and back before There was any talk of love And any talk of life And any talk of closeness And any searing knife Back before any physical thing Besides awkward patting hugs Back before the straightened teeth Back before the drugs. Back before the lonely nights Where we spoke of keeping each other sane Back before we grew so close Back when dating was a game. Although maybe it still is, after all... And I know I hurt you then And that's why in loving now. I told you several months ago A promise that you know I said I'd never hurt you And I plan to keep that true.