Eat to Grow

Food was always a source of happiness

 

Eating a fun pastime

 

Until it wasn't

 

Until it became a fear-filled activity

 

Until it overtook me and I lost who I was

 

If I could go back I'd tell her that it's okay

 

I'd tell her to love herself, love food, love it the way many people don't get a chance to

 

I'd tell her to enjoy being a "kid" for as long as possible

 

I'd tell her that in letting her image and bodily appearance overtake her, she was letting go of her childhood and embracing something else

 

I can't go back though, no one can

 

But I can learn

 

I can learn to love myself

 

I can learn to enjoy the simple things in life

 

I can learn to appreciate what I'm lucky to have

 

I can learn