Is it bad that I see myself as FAT?

Is it bad that I secretly want to be underweight?

Is it bad that im never completely happy?

Is it bad that I lie to my loved ones?

Is it bad that I cannot eat for days?

Is it bad that I go to the gym on an empty stomach?

Is it bad that I purge?

Is it bad that I overdose on laxatives?

Is it bad that I like feeling empty?

Is it bad that I dont feel in control?

Is it bad that I constantly feel dizzy and tired?

Is it bad that I use my eating habbits as a way to stop my emotions?

Is it bad that I see all this as NORMAL?