The echoing silence

Echoing silence as I scream for help Reaching out with nothing more than a gentle smile. Laughs that hold back the oceans of tears Mask the pain hidden for years. Every breath loses its appeal More and more I've forgotten how to feel. Numbing myself by building up walls Deeper and deeper I fall In to the dark depths of my destructive insecurities. Avoiding even looking at my reflection Out of disgust of my flawed features I ravage in my darkness like night creatures. Discontent with who I am and what I see Without the slightest clue of who I wish to be. Stuck in an endless daze Running terrified through life like a kid lost in a maze. Sickened when someone sings my praise. So here I sit wishing the fog away Here I sit praying for a better day.