OFF THE EDGE

I never have time to just cry I hold it in 
I never have enough time to break I try and repair it. 
I never have enough time to explode and heal myself because that mean I have to show people whats hurting me. 
The scares, the scream, the empty rooms, the dead graves that sing surrounding me.
I never have time to cry 
YOU WENT DOWN 4 POINTS IN BIOLOGY
WHATS GOING ON WITH YOUR SCIENCE GRADE 
IMANI CAN DO IT BECAUSE SHE DIDN'T MAKE STRAIGHT A'S 
YOU ARE LATE MAYBE YOU MIGHT NOT NEED TO BE VICE PRESIDENT 
IMANI PUT YOUR FOOT DOWN 
IMANI THIS MY 3RD TIME TELLING YOU 
YES MAMA AND AND I SALLOW MY ANGER 
STRANGLE MYSELF SO THE TEARS WONT BECOME INTO A HURRICANE AS I DROWN IN THE MIST OF RUNNING AWAY
YOU CAN'T HANDLE IT 
I  watch my smile turn to dust as the little person in me yells because it takes my sadness and hide it and cover it up so people know that i'm ok
YEAH YOUR GRADES ARE OK 
ARE YOU SERIOUS YOU GO TUTORING EVERYDAY
IM SURPRISED YOU EVEN MADE THE TEAM 
YOU WILL NEVER GET IT 
WHAT MAKES YOU WORTH IT
I TRIED MY BEST BUT ITS NOT ENOUGH 
JERRY CRUNCHER YOU FAILED THE TEST 
IMANI I NEED TO TALK TO YOU 
the 3rd grade YELLS  brings pain to my ears as I  replay failure failure FAILURE FAILURE FAILURE
YOU ARE IN TROUBLE 
CAN YOU HELP ME 
CAN YOU HELP CAN YOU HELP ME IMANI 
I NEED YOU I NEED YOU 
CAN YOU HELP ME IMANI 
WHAT'S WRONG IMANI 
ASK GOD 
IT'S GOING BE OK 
IMANI YOU NEVER WAS THERE FOR ME ...
THOSE LAST WORDS AND I FELLED OF THE EDGE.. 
OFF THE EDGE 
WHERE IMANI SHE DROWNED BECAUSE SHE HAD NO MORE TO LOSE AND THIS WORLD TEST HER AS SHE TRIES TO PUT UP A FIGHT LOST HER MIGHT 
OFF THE EDGE
 
This poem is about: 
Me

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