Eleven Stories

Eleven stories I'll tell you 
....what a long way down 
I hear somebody "fell" once 
the same way that people just "drown" 
I've watched my body from the outside 
no soul Iam just a drone! 
cold and empty questions 
helpless and alone 
you can hear me from the east 
sobing at the west 
imagining this glass isnt real 
regretting things of past 
just wake me from this nightmare 
just tell me she is fine 
for she does not deserve this 
her hearts so pure compared to mine! 
shes the caring person that always helps the weak 
the very same weak I used to eat 
and now I'm just a mind searching for belief 


* thoughts from the 11th floor cancer ward Mt sanai hospital ...late august 2009 
*dedicated to mom