Ella

The soft touch of your skin under my fingertips

The smell of your hair hits me like waves, faintly coconutty

Wraps around me like a warm blanket on a cold day, fresh out of the shower

You make me feel alive in a way I never did before

Maybe it's because the electricity I feel when I feel your breath on my skin is no forbidden love

Maybe it's because when I'm held down by the weight of the world, you feel it too

And when you hurt, I hurt too

Maybe it's because I talk about the way you hurt me 

And you don't just hear

You listen

Before I met you I never understood how to share the way I felt

Drilled into my core was a feeling of inadequacy 

If I spoke my mind, if I let him know I was unhappy, I would give him the power

The power in the relationship, the power over my feelings

But you listen 

And when I listen to you

Sometimes I'm mad

But I try, I try so hard to understand you

Sometimes we feel so close we might as well share a body

And sometimes you're so far away from me it's as if we just met

But we teach eachother 

You make me better

And I feel 

I really feel, I know 

As though I do you too