The fact that I hold the door open for girls does NOT make me a lesbian.
I fantasize about guys way more than I should. Fulfilling my desires, egged on by horniness, however, is NOT my top priority. I know a gentleman who can be the biggest doofus at times, but I proudly call him my significant other. He fills every requirement of a gentleman. If he dared disrespect anyone, he would apologize in an instant. He stands up for his beliefs and does not let others pressure him into sketchy situations.
I remember some situations in which I found myself, alone and afraid, stranded without a shred of conviction that what I had done previously made any sense. It may seem like my mind rambles and makes excuses for everyone around me, but that gives me no right to self-denial.
Guys and girls are equally attractive to me in completely different ways. I cannot deny that I have a problem with sexual repression. It distracts me from being a good student, and honest person. I lie to save face, for myself and for her.
She loves me; I know that. I cannot help but wonder if I'm falling for her, too.