Emptiness

This emptiness you left me with inside Has destroyed me and made me forget who I am Do I know who I am with out you? I was just a quiet little butterfly who never Spread my wings truly flew until I met you The person I became when we got together is the person I was meant to be I look in the mirror and cant find that woman I became Then I realized it was years longer that I had lost myself along the way So I sit here and search within to find the new person I am to be. I know feel down inside there's a beautiful woman waiting to break free and shine. Like a pheonix rising from the ashes. I shall rise as a person again Even better then before When I'm with you or hear your voice I love who I am in those moments You bring out the best in me and help this woman break free from the hurt and deceit I was left in. As the dust settles around me I can start to see clearly again. Knowing I am a mom and nana who is very loved and needed. I am not worthless or someone to be just tossed aside. He didn't want me and thats ok cuz its his loss. I am important and special to more important people in this life time. They will never stop loving me or throw me out with the trash They know how smart, loving, giving, and selfless I am Cuz I do it for them every time. I would give my life for my kids with out a second thought So now I finish rising and once again I am mom and nan For those who need me the most and have been hurt by my selfish behavior. I never wanted to hurt them Thats the last thing I wanted to do Somehow lost sight of them in all the turmoil you caused on your wait out. I began to forget no matter how old they are they will always need me. Your controlling nature made them respect me less Making it hard for me to remember I am still their mom Noone can ever take that away from me no matter what they do My children are my heart and soul. They are who make me the beautiful woman I am. I wouldnt be who I am with out them. As the pheonix rises she gathers her young and embraces them never to let go again. Now she is complete and whole once again She can rise again from the firey flames thrown at her As long as she has her babies to show her the way home. This Phoenix is me the newer and stronger woman that no man will ever destroy again. Im a strong and independent woman and mother who needs no man in my life. Unless I choose to allow him in.