empty

CONTAINS SEXUAL MATERIAL THAT MAY TRIGGER SOME PEOPLE

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Im not dead

I just feel empty

all emotions drained

reasons for trying

dying

these empty brown eyes

wanting someone to understand

silently screaming

wanting to take charge of my life

trying to believe my body is mine

willing myelf to get up

the energy just not there

too tired for tears

wanting to only feel safe

but not wanting to be touched

to never have another penis enter me

to not allow another person touch my vagina

that doesn't have one themselves

rape is not apart of my story

but it mght as well have been

I will get past all of this

it will be in my past

left in this town

these wounds to never be shown

to keep them down

to never appear again

I feel empty

devoid of anything

not enveloped in self-pity

just tired

Im just tired........