Empty Apologies

by noel.wippler

April 26, 2016

Empty apologies

So when it gets hard

I feel like I want to give up

Inside it feels bad

Like everything I work for

Is being dogged out

I feel like the jewels in my crown must be taken out

For those to be in comfort

It feels almost as if there is a few people that understand

In believing in your dream: the time is now

It's like a sabotage

I want to be better musician

I want to fight for a stronger team

I believe that there is more to me than what has been taken

If it is taken away then there's no gift

Energy being created and then just there taken away to be drained

And dogged

The same people

I feel as if I am in an abusive relationship with myself

Forgiving and allowing

When giving your life force energy away

To someone , all of your passion, all of your spirit

And they give it to someone else in front of you

It's such a cutting spirit

That hurts and bleeds

I pray for forgiveness to myself

To heal and to have the strength to leave

But every time

I keep thinking

That he would change

But he hasn't before and he isn't now

So here I am Alone in my thoughts, drained, frustrated and

he still walking around

With his empty apologies

It's like a broken record

Playing the same sweet song

But it never gets over with

It plays until the night and all the day long

With his voice repeating

And yes, you are crazy boy

Why can't you just leave me alone?

And let me live free

Can you imagine me smiling and being free

Or do you want me chained inside your slavery

Too many times before I hear you call my name

All of these little lies seem to make me go insane

Why do you have to break apart the things that we should build

My mind turning wild make me feel all of this guilt

Why should I be with you instead of being free

He still walking around

With his empty apologies

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