The end

My mind is a dangerous place

I let it take over

And my thoughts feel like a race

Pushing and fighting

To fill the conclusion

The only thing it's achieves

Is leading me to delusion.

I don't want you to leave me alone

But idk if this is healthy

Me depending on you

For happiness

I should get on my own

I fucked up

But what's new

I always find a way

To screw it up with you

Just make assumptions

I know i shouldn't

But if i don't

Then i'd be restless

Craving for that high

When I take long hits.

But i don't want to have to

Turn to it 

Because i know im better than this

Can't say 

That it won't happen again

My thoughts are unpredictable

Maybe for your own sake

You shouldnt be my friend

I'll only hurt you in the end

It's not my intention

But i guess

That's just who i am

Filling my life

With toxic traits

But i don't realize

I'm sorry that i am the one

That you used to date.

We had a fun time

I must admit

Although you were dragging me down

Into a never ending abyss.

But i know

That you will find better

Someone who

Will make you wanna commit

To be with them forever

But our romantic relationship

Must now forever be severed.

I know

Forgiveness does not come easy

It takes time

And might not 

Come together completely.

I am sorry

For the things I say

I don't really mean them

A heat in the moment

Caught in my head

Filled with rage

That i lost a friend

I don't want to really believe

That this is the end.