Endless Fight

Silence is suffocating but when he screams he chokes on fear

 He doesn’t want them to know he doesn’t want them to hear.

 He doesn’t want to be here.

And like the sky cries rain he cries acid tears

That embeds in his soul and over the years

They’ve crystalized to reflect his being

And oh how they shine

To where he can’t hide all the scars

The ones he wears on his heart and his arms.

He’s tried too many times to find a way out

To fly higher than the sky or turn the world about

In his hands

To see if God has his life planned

Or if he should let the cards lay where they land.

Cold and afraid he tries to make sense of the thoughts in my mind

But the times he’s failed is all he can find

And that leads to the failures that make up his life

And he’s sick of all the disillusion and strife that built up in his veins

Begging him to somehow change

Every circumstance to which he calls home.

“God I can’t do this anymore”

He cries and falls to the floor.

This is a scene he’s played before

He’s closed the window and locked the door

His heart’s beating harder than waves on the shore

Being pushed by a fierce relentless storm.

From beneath the bed he pulls a blade

The enforcer of scars without chance to fade

As cold metal presses to his chest he realizes the act closes differently tonight

With held breath and all his might

He plunges into an eternal night.