Endless Nights

Its endless how i wander throughout the night wondering what purpose i have in this life. I cant cope with the issues society brings but i been able to block out most things. I was always taught to forgive when you have been done wrong but i dont know how long this can go on . I just dont get it cant nothing be good or anything become right which leads me back to these endless nights. I live in a place where one person rules and all my time is consumed by work, girls and school. Sometimes I feel the urge to go insane or to treat life as one big game .I just wish it was one person who could treat me right and help me avoid these endless nights.