Enlightened by me

I watch as the pieces fall some what like a puzzle and the more it comes together the more I try to bury it so I reach to my left and grab my shovel... The enemies eyes pierce me straight threw my soul everything she says, what she speaks it all feels so old....sad is how I feel when The stories told....I shed the old like a wilting grasshopper and hop to the new from the old.....I know I've done wrong but that wrong will forever be before me even when I'm old no matter how the stories told or how I present myself... Haters will hate so I be myself yes I shine threw the darkness in my life I'm always seen one way cuz for some reason they hate to acknowledge the true me.... I'm always told I'm pompous and arrogant but you know what I'm tired of this deal with my life walk in my shoes... Souls so worn it feels like apart I've been torn life experiences are more like a life of nightmares....I try to live threw and I raise my own self esteem but these bitches can't see me for what I am because they can't see me clearly threw..yet I can see straight threw them... My facades like glass yet they don't know that they can break threw.... All my life I've been a shoe in and had my soul ripped out but not even my family knows my struggles... I'd give up but for some reason it's like this life I can not live without...I don't purposely use metaphors I don't purposely speak using clichés it just happens how it happens I write my poems and my mind wonders away... See I don't care no more what u think cuz I'm brilliantly myself shine so bright you'll need shades to see me clearly...words so vibrant you'll need a dictionary to believe me...My experiences craft my future like the waters that dried up in the deserts but left a designed pattern into the cliffs that they created...my life's like the desert dry and harsh yet I shed no rain...it's all dried up and deserted...