Enough

I love you

Enough to stand still and look down so I can see my heart beat through my chest

Enough to write you poetry when everyone tells me that’s lame, even you

Enough to rip open a child and steal their heart because I need storage for more love, which is weird because I’m a Buddhist

But I don't love you enough

I tell people that I love you and they seem to understand

They don't understand why we love who we love but they do understand why we love to love

And we all understand love when we feel it

And I understand you

I love you

But I don't love you enough

I don't love you enough to convince you not to hurt me

I don't love you enough to make you want to have me as your only one

I don't love you enough to make you realize that you mean something to me

But it's fine. I can understand this

Because it's my fault

Because I don't love you enough

But I've been changing

I found myself and I found you with me

But I don't want you to be there with me

Because I don't love you enough

I can’t love fast enough for my heart to pump blood to all the wounds I’m left with because of you

I won’t love all the other souls with such fire too the way that you do

My love doesn’t go door to door buying you from every person’s menu out of fear you appear on more than one

So even if you say that not loving you enough makes everything okay

Or even if I sometimes believe you

That will never deny one important thing

That I love you

And that should be enough