i grew up with Them

i grew up with Their love and Their lies

i grew up with Their help and Their hurt

i grew up with Their wisdom and Their words

i grew up with Them but They say

i could be prettier

i could be popular

i could be likeable

i could be loveable

i could be smarter

If i stay

If i change

Maybe i could love Them back

 

i don’t know you

you don’t know me

Yet

In Your smile, with Your laughs

With Your warmth, and with Your words

i am pretty

i am popular

i am likeable

i am loveable

i am smart

Even maybe, just maybe

i am enough

If i stay

Maybe i could love You back

 

i know Them

Yet They don’t know me

i don’t know You

Yet You seem to know me

They say I can never be good enough for Them

But You say that i am

You say that i am good enough for You

And then a small voice inside me wakes and asks

is anyone good enough for me?

i think nothing

And i say nothing

And i stay nothing

 

When i am with Them,

i am alone

And if i stay with Them

i could change

They would always say to me

you’re not popular

you’re not pretty

you’re not likeable

you’re not loveable

you’re not smart

And i would change

So that i can be enough

 

When i am with You

i am not alone

And if i stay with You

i don’t have to change

You would always say to me

you’re popular

you’re pretty

you’re likeable

you’re loveable

you’re smart

And then i would never change

Because I am already

Enough