Euphoric Grey of Wonder

Grey I see Grey A hint of blue Maybe red But definitely Grey It just hit me I guess I'm seeing how I’m feeling Grey because I gloomy and sad Blue because I’m calm And red because I’m definitely mad Mad at what I don't know Its like it was installed into me Just like love for one's mother OOOHHH!! I just saw a flash of yellow Thats funny I’m feeling a little mellow This laying down thing must be working I feel so relaxed As I tune everybody out Vultures They are not people They're vultures Always wanting some thing from me Cant leave me alone Leaving me to deal with the mess they create I’m getting tired of this mess I ain't nobody momma Now they making the ghetto come out of me Suddenly all I see is red Now these vultures got me mad Forget it Forget them them What did they ever do for me ? I'm tired of thinking about this It's not gonna change anything Because I'm just going to go right back and solve all of their problems I'm like one of those clueless people that doesn't want to leave they abuser. I not dumb though At least I don’t think I am I’m a smart person So how did I get to this point? Where I am questioning my whole life I don't know when this girl took over but she needs to go back I had so much high hopes and aspirations My future was going to be so auspicious I was going to be a doctor Fulfilling my dreams, Delivering babies, Being happy I am so smart yet I let all this stuff slip pass me Where is success now I guess its gone with all my hope And they never coming back. It could have been different Yeah? BUT ITS NOT! You let these things happen This one is all on you It is my fault the girl is right The only reason she's here is because I let everything go. All the dreams all the success I let it all go I fell into a deep dark dank abyss and won't ever get out I’m overwhelmed by everything But people wont understand They cant help me They wont help me They just hate me No one loves me Yet I still help them But who is gonna be there for me I question everything over and over again Being redundant won't help me now I'm never gonna find what I’m looking for No one is never going to come and say its OK Because they don’t care. I see Orange Because I am a little mad yet still mellow. I have no one to blame but myself I can't blame anyone but myself I’m all alone with no one to help And everyday this goes on I die a little more inside. I’m tired All this laying down makes me sleepy As I reluctantly close my eyes I wonder what color I'll see tomorrow In the back of my mind I know I'll see Grey No blue no red just Grey Because I will be gloomy and sad Not calm nor mad Just Grey. Just dull boring Grey As I fall asleep I submit myself into a world of Grey.