Even When I Doubt You

Honestly, I'm terrified. And honestly, I am scared of what will become of me. 

Have I done enough? Am I really the person I say I am? What do others think of me? 

I sit in that room with others like me; going through the motions.

Hand clapping, singing along to the songs I think I know. Trying to blend in like the rest of them.

But I know He sees me. I know He's watching me. 

I know that He's the only one who truly knows me. He knows my doubts; my questions about Him and life. 

He knows that I'm afraid. He knows that I feel empytness on the inside. 

He knows that I give so much of myself to others and am thirsty for something in return. 

He knows what I've done; knows all of the mistakes that I try to cover up.

Knows that I've tried lying to myself to make my decisions seem juvenile. 

He knows what I need most...

Knows that I'm still afraid. Still scared. 

But there is one thing I do know; even when I doubt You...I know that I'm no good without You. 

I know that it says that You have not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and a sound mind.

I know that if You are for me, who/what can stand against me?

I know that love never fails. I know that He is love. I know that he has, and never will fail.

Even when I doubt You, I'm no good without You.

If it's one thing I can't live without--

It's you.

Don't forget about me. 

Please...