Everything

who would have thought?

That my best friend would betray me

she fell into your trap once like i did

That this final year in high school

would be filled with so much sadness and hatred

that no matter what i do im always wrong 

i had a couple sips not even that strong

had a vape and you said i was through

now im grounded but i had no life anyways

im 17 with a 9pm curfew

I live 30 minutes away from my school and friends

all i ever do is work and school with very little time to hang and chill

unlike most who are hooked on dope and alcohol 

i had a few sips and bam the world ended

yall took it to far

yall make my life more hell

we moved and now i have to pay all this money just to enjoy my last year

my graduation doesnt matter 

my other family doesnt care

i tried so hard in school

to have honors and the congress

but yet you still say im throwing my life away 

i made a few choices to try and have a little fun 

and now its like i killed a person 

i cant do it anymore 

i cant keep trying 

its hard to reach your goals and be motivated 

when those who are supposed to support you 

tell you not to try 

The teacher told me not to try

i cant make it as a doctor 

so why even try 

you cant afford the school 

you wont make it if you tryd so why bother 

You say im to fat 

i cant lose the weight 

you tell me its always gonna be hard 

and you tear me down more

how can i lose the weight when my own family tears me down 

you let your wife control everything,

you let her see whats shes doing 

she doesnt care about me just her baby daughter

im the middle child to her

im the lyer and filled with drama 

im the one that yall will see for three days when i walk down that stage

i dont want it anymore 

i dont want her there

i dont want my life goals

im giving up its hard to fight

when everyone else just tears you down 

makes you feel like your doing it for nothing 

i cant even have money for gas even after all that hard work 

i have all this to pay for 

i have been adulting since the age of 12

always adujusting to tthe moving and never making friends 

i stayed at this school and drive 36 minutes a day 

just so that i wouldnt have to restart my last year

i should have moved and just been miserable 

i should have just left like all the times before 

i work and work for very little money yet all i ever do is have to pay car inusrance

or pay for the repairs 

im 17 and i have been adulting and grown up since 12

my friends get to grow up and be kids a little longer 

they got to take there time

but no little old me had to grow up fast 

and now as the next step of life is arriving i just realized 

i aint starting something new its just slightly different

all work no play 

so why am i living 

you told me the stories of you younger but say i cant do the same

you yell im in the house all the time, but yell when i ask for plans

you tell me im wasting my high school not making memories but the times i try you say no go away 

how am i supposed to be then?

all you let me do is work and have plans once a week 

im sick and tired

tired of trying 

i just want to stop fighting 

just give up 

jiust let it go 

the worlds better off 

now you know

you say i have a perfect life 

but all you see is lies

the fake smile the laugh 

do you see the tears at night

there marriage is failing 

they blame it on me 

im the reason everything is breaking cant you see??