For Everything I Never Said

Every time I never said "I'll love you everyday"

Every time my heart sank because I couldn't find the words to tell you what I meant to say 

Every time I pushed away

Every time I knew it was painful and never said "It's going to be okay"

I knew what you went through and still remined silent and quiet

Slowly, I died inside. 

Every time I never told you that your kisses leave me drugged

Every time I almost said "Don't let me go home. What if I get mugged?"

Every time I never said how beautiful you were, that your smile lit up a room.

Every time I refused to admit you made me swoon. 

Oh, I stay silent and quiet because of those private things.

Cutie, you should be home.

Every time I never say "He would have liked this"

Every time I slay a dragon for its hubris

Every time I sway to the rhythm of the moon.

Every time I sit in my bed and croon.

Baby, all these things I miss about you.

I need your silliness here.

Love, let me tell you I'm sorry for everything I never said-especially "I love you."