Experience.

I want the love and to feel the pain

But no one sees inbetween the grain

They leave me here in this fateful fixture 

But life is emotions in a horrible mixture

No one will say that this is fine

Life is more than a simple line

I will take your kiss and love how I feel 

But in my mind, nothing is real.

I'll be unsatisfied and long for them

And remember how I am an unfinished hem

I wish to grow and become more human

But that doesn't change this fantasy grin

I'll push untill I feel it's true,

I'll push until they don't make me blue 

Because I am everything; and I will not be less 

But I won't forget what's made this mess 

Was it me? Or was it the positions I've been in?

Maybe it's the wrong of every man.

I cannot see past their evergrowing ego

Or the way they refused to let me go.

It's not my nature and it's not who I am 

To let myself be defined by these awful men.