Experimental Chances

It takes over your body, Controls your muscles, Ruins your speech and handwriting, And diminishes your ability to walk. You think you have tried everything, But nothing seems to help. You want to give up, But you know you still have to try. You need to be strong. You ask for help, But no one seems to help you. They treat you like a child, Give you more medications telling you That it will fix everything. And although you know it won’t, You don’t say anything. You just shake your head And leave. You need to be strong. The medication has side effects. You develop a rash, You have intense muscle aches, And you’re constantly tired. You can’t life your legs So you shuffle your feet. Instead of telling, You act like you are fine. You need to be strong. You decide to do something drastic, You decide to be in an experimental surgery. You think that it may help, But you’re afraid it won’t. They will drill into your head, Put transmitters in your brain, And a remote in your chest. They shave your head, And prep you for surgery. You need to be strong. You’re out four hours later. You wonder if it worked, And it did for a few months. But now it doesn’t work, And you’re back on the medications. They still give you rashes, And don’t allow you to do what you used to be able to. I wish they would work. I wish the surgery would have worked. I wish I could fix everything Grammy, But all I can say is: You need to be strong.