Extremes

I’m tired of my eating 

Going from one extreme to the next

From days or weeks straight of 

binge eating until it hurts to breathe

Forcing myself to throw it all up

Then days or weeks of restricting 

Allowing myself to barley have anything

Because I’m too scared that if I 

Eat actual food I’ll just go back down 

And I’m right bc once I force myself

To actually eat again I can’t stop

And I eat and eat until I feel so sick

It’s such a terrible cycle

My body is in constant pain

I just think about food all day

How do I make this stop

I want to be in control of my own body