F & P

What inspires me?

There are reasons I push myself to be ambitious & ruthless,

so I can get to where long to be. 

Two reasons. 

Two men, boys I mean.

They don’t deserve to be called men. 

F & P

With F we suffered with for 5 years. 

Enduring the backlash of the manipulation of my mom.

Surviving the forced feeding sessions. 

Experiencing a wooden spoon being against my bare skin.

With P we rode out 4 years. 

Tolerating the disgustingly negative comments. 

Withstanding the humiliation and intimidation. 

Undergoing the pain and heartache of seeing my mom in yet another abusive and manipulative relationship,

toxic as ever. 

Each of these things inspired me to be great. 

To be better than anything they could ever possibly be. 

I have to fight to be everything they believed I could never be. 

But those two imbeciles are not the reason I am inspired;

I am my own inspiration. 

They just gave me reasons to inspire myself;

reasons for me to be the best version of myself,

for me and me only.