Failure and blindness

 

1 John 5:17 

17 All unrighteousness is sin, but there is sin not resulting in death.

 

 

“Do not be deceived. God is Pure and Holy.

The unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God.

Justified and sanctified, cleansed by the blood,

how can you dwell in sin and your conscience warns you not?”

 

Warnings come and warnings go ... but who teaches to listen?

The sources used by Jesus ... spring up all around me.

Why can’t I simply see ... the flags around me waving?

Why can’t I hear suggestions ... blaring in my ears?

 

Several years have gone by ... and still I see the failure.

Why did I not recognize ... the symptoms of it all?

It surely is amazing to have ... eyes that cannot see

and ears that cannot hear ... the confusion of it all.

 

Everyone is gone now ... the good, the bad and ugly

I am left by myself ... with the memories of it all.

Mislead by self, mislead by all ... now emptiness surrounds me.

I guess most of my life ... was interwoven in my fall.

 

Left alone with my thoughts ... questions keep on nagging.

‘Why did I not leave this mess ... long ago, yes long before?”

Everyone else left this sinking ship ... why did I choose to stay

to let myself die with it ... to later wash up on shore?

 

Will I go to the sea again ... well I really doubt it?

Too much of my confidence ... went down with the boat.

I won’t trust the captain ... the officers and the crew.

I rather sit now on land ... while others seem to float.

 

Jan Wienen