A Failures Perspective

Failure rushes like adrenaline and it pops up in my veins     Am I a different type of specimen that I could no longer try to hide and contain?                                                                       Happiness I no longer match up ,It's been long since I actually meant a smile                                                                I feel I could no longer catch up , With the fear of  and ending up in a police file.                                           Som etimes I hear whispers in the wind , but I'm not a psycho.  Telling me "where have you been " Do  I really save 15% in life ?where the hell is geico ?                                                 Too many obstacles  that I constantly have to face , I wish life was easy as tying up a shoelace.                                       So many opportunities but limited lack of choosing choices , I knew I could of done better if only I listened to the correct  voices.                                                                                     Yes there are many decisions I highly regret, but everyday I live with guilt so I  can never truly  forget .                       Many times I do think about the next day because before success was difficult to achieve ,                                     Nothing broken showed up on the X-Ray but I did got crushed when one of my friends did happen to leave .                 It was difficult when I didn't have that person to cope with, it was depressing  ,                                                                   "it'll go away" that's a straight myth so I attended mass in hopes God will give me a blessing . nothing against religion because at times it is great ,                                                        it however didn't help me with a vision,  that I hoped to created.                                                                                   I've have always failed that is something I must confess,          the year is 2015 and I have yet to find success.