Fairytale

I used to think that love would find me. And then I spent a year and a half loving you. With no reciprocation, Correlation equals causation... meaning: Around you I was happy, So I equated you to my happiness. Then my happiness decided to take a vacation. A vacation from me. I dreamed of you constantly, You haunted me each night And I came to the realization That no matter how hard you try No matter what you do, Of course a dream is a wish your heart makes But it's not gonna come true. I'll be your Cinderella, Find me a shoe that fits. I'll give you a hint, I'm a size seven! Don't forget it. Better yet, I'll be your Belle, and you can be my beast. My love and affection will be enough for you then, at least. I'll look past all your flaws, hell I already do. I'd look past a million of them before I give up on you. Everyone says I seem love struck, And are keen on asking me who you are, And I tell them and show them that you were my shooting star. But now that you've said no, You're not my shooting star. You're a fireball from hell that crashed into my heart. It took you so long to figure out that it wasn't where you belonged that when you finally uprooted yourself, you took a piece of me with you because I'd grown quite fond of having you there. I still call you my best friend, Cause ya know what else can I do but move on. I promised things wouldn't be weird between us, But the same night you "politely" rejected me, you posted something along the lines of "I know your boyfriends' are sleep so come mess with me" At that very moment, I began to despise you. But I despised myself more for ever falling for you. You stopped calling, you left me on read. Probably thinking that no matter what you do I'll come running back but instead I'm done. I'm done telling people about the butterflies I get in my stomach when I think about you, and how everything about you is sunshine and rainbows and butterflies and flowers and unicorns. Because unicorns DONT EXIST. And the flowers have wilted, their once beautiful petals are void of life, they're dead. And the sun doesn't shine on me because it rose and set with you. And I don't think about rainbows anymore because I don't see all the different, beautiful colors that you taught me to. And the butterflies have lost their wings, all becoming a dull shade of blue. Cinderella never found her shoe, And love never found me with you. You were my fairytale. You were my wish. But you didn't come true.