Fake Smiles Is Real Pain

I’ve been broke and alone 

Lost in the cold they say it gets better 

But this shit is getting old 

I can’t wait for a place that I own 

Something no one can take from me 

Cause my whole life i've never had a place a

Sanctuary 

Just a kid in this world that's scary

My life like the light after sun down 

Slowly fading back on to the next town

I see fake smiles everywhere. 

They’re hunting me like demons and I need you here. 

Cause you’re a real one, don’t you see that I need you near? 

They say you gotta feel something, i rather feel your hair.

it's too late to say I love you, I'm so tired of feeling numb

everything you put me through, it makes me feel like I succumb

to these thoughts about you and, everything I can't forget

been on my mind for many days, can't seem to get you out of my head

I love you to infinity, it seems that you don't love me back

why would you love me when all I did was treat you fucking bad

did this to myself and now I'm forced to be and feel alone

I wish I was in your arms 'cause that's when I feel most at home

I wonder if you think of me as much as you are on my mind

because some days it drives me crazy and I can't leave the past behind

you will always be the first, I know there's no changing that

I hate the fact that you don't ever try to call or message back

I wonder if you think of me as much as you are on my mind

because some days it drives me crazy and I can't leave the past behind

you will always be the first, I know there's no changing that

I hate the fact that you don't ever try to call or message back

I’ve been living on my own now

I’ve done popped a couple pills

Stuck up in the feels 

I really can’t tell what is real 

Surrounded by fake smiles

Every single day

Makes my mind think of you and makes me what to stay the next day

Missing you is the hardest thing not to do 

Because loving you is the only thing I ever knew 

But the day that you d.       0ecided to leave me was the day I felt lost and blue

So all these fake smiles got to me and know I ain’t the same 

And I am done playing these games

Thank you for listening but this is just me 

So let me be me and let me be free