Fallen Angel

I don’t know if I’m awake or dreaming, all I can hear is the birds singing, that was a signal for me to wake up & smile but I couldn’t because I had to finish cleaning , cleaning up something I didn’t create, why can’t people just learn from their mistakes, putting me in the position of caring but how can I care when its like a knife cutting into a steak, you always said you cared, its like a innocent fish being eaten by a vicious bear, you call that support? Well support don’t come around here anymore, love and honesty, since when did you become in a dynasty? You want to be a God , the creator of all worlds, stop tryna be a woman when you’re still a little girl, my mind is on many things, many nightmares and many dreams, but isn’t that the same thing? Visualizing something that I should have not been in, so what if you lose, you think everybody wins? It’s a part of life, grow up & pick up your chin, I’m sorry for being too demanding, you lose , I win, stop acting like you never committed sin, I’m so angry that I’m ashamed to even call you my kin, Okay look I’m sorry, I know I made the same mistakes as you, but you make me so sick its like I caught the flu, you always talk about my mistakes, am I the only one with a ugly personality with a pretty face? You know what, forget you , you really thought I was done with your case? Why are you always the beautiful flower blooming in the pot when I’m on the outside protecting you with my ugly vase, I want to be happy! What don’t you understand? I just need a shoulder to lean on, someone to call my superman, I’m just gonna stop talking cause I never get support. I just wanna leave this house and take a ride to the airport, will anyone listen to me at all? Oh yeah I forgot , I’m one of those angels that fall. Cymone Newton