Family

Who are you the one who tore through my walls?

Person who I have named ‘friend’

My heart was closed and locked…

All my walls were up

You ran though them

You became my best friend

You became family

You earned my trust

Granted it was hard

But you didn’t give up.

You helped me through so much

Then you broke it…

You broke my ability to trust.

I’ve turn to paper to write my sorrows

My pain, my brokenness, MY loneliness

Why? Because of YOU!

Do you remember what you said?

 “If anyone is mean to you or hurts you tell me OK?”

Those words gained my trust

My arms became paper

I drew my solitude

I talked to inanimate objects

For crying out loud!

Remember what you said?

What those words did to me you will never know

How torn up I was inside

“What are you talking about? We aren’t friends.”

Those words cut through my soul

My very being

Instead of crying

I smiled politely

While inside I was dying silently

No one to hear my screams

You have been my Family

You have been there when no one else was

You comforted me…

Remember the day I was crying?

Because of my ‘uncle’ and my sister?

I went in your backpack

And you let me have some of your chex-mix…

I have happy memories with you…

But would it be easier to forget you?

After all you just ignore me…

That isn’t the saddest thing of all…

The saddest thing is…

I still call you

Family