Father?

I once thought of you as my father Although your blood doesn't run through my veins That's what I claimed But then one day; Like glass shattering, something snapped in you You took advantage of me And now I'll never be the same I can't even stand hearing your voice over the phone Everytime I do.. It's like salt water lapping against my open wounds Ever since that horrible summer I've been left bloody, broken and used I will never ever be the same as I once was It's like a tattoo I keep trying to carve away But every time I try, I just leave bigger scars Most days I muddle along getting through okay.. But others.. It takes everything I have to even get out of bed So many people say 'just let go of the past' And I just want to scream and tell them, 'how about you freaking try it!' There are horrible things in this world No one realizes it until something effects their life The world is an ugly, beautiful place Like yin and yang And finally, I think i'm starting to see the beauty.