People wonder what my problem is
And of course when I say people I mean my friends
I personally don't think that I have a problem at all
Cause it's plain to see that that it's just me
But still I must explain why I act this way
Even though it's not hard to see that I'm just as plain as day
You see my father left when I was only three
For a lady who I always thought was mean
But what do you expect
She broke my family in two and had me singing the blues
Not only did the situation break my family in two
But it broke me in two
Broke me down
Ripped me in half
Had me feeling ,oh so bad
So I did what any other kid would do
Instead of being sad I got mad and said ,"To hell with my dad!"
I don't need him in my life
He disturbed my peace of mind, and he always told me lies
I was so angry, I needed a release
So I yelled
And I cursed
Until there was nothing left
I finally sat down a while and thought
Ha ! You know it's funny
He really had us fooled
Talking about how he loves me, my mom, and my sisters too
How dare he treat us that way !
Like we were his little toys....
Talking with us...
Laughing with us...
Kissing me !!
Saying that I'll always be your babygirl
Nigga please !!
How dare you put your hands on me !!!
I'm not stupid !!!
I wasn't born yesterday!!!
Do I look like Booboo the Fool to you ?!
I know everything about you !!
You know ever since you left I haven't been able to have a good relationship with
Because I'm afraid the same thing will happen to me
And it has...
More times than I'd like to remember....
But of course you wouldn't know that
Considering the fact that you haven't been in my life for 12 years
You know what else is funny ?
It's so obvious that you regret everything that you did
We see it in your eyes
We hear it in the sad love songs you listen to
Laugh out loud man !
Everytime you come around it's always the same
You sit there staring at my mother with want and need
You look pathetic every time
So..... now that you know my story I guess you
could say that I have issues
But let's face it....
Who doesn't these days ?