Fear of change

Have you ever been so scared that you looked deep into your past and saw the things which couldn’t last as reality slips your grasp. As you breathe your lungs collapse, so perhaps I’m not quite strange to say it’s been a long time since I’ve felt this way.  Alive and ok, just for more than today. Deep inside I hoped and prayed for a sign, for someone to make “me” feel fine but this isn’t a movie. I spit thoughts at you, and draw lines of blue so deep inside it etched what’s true.  Simplicity , is simple c thank you for the winter times, cause in those times, my lines would blossom like some roads signs. The source of them were often undefined, never speaking fine but the thoughts were running through my very mind. Nature and essence, the two categories of these blessings,later which I would derive many lessons too bad there no instruction through the toughest session.