I never opened up to someone
afraid of being hurt.
I kept them away with fake smiles
and a simple I'm okay.
I am afraid of people.
I am afraid of myself.
I am afraid of having my heart shattered
like my fragile mind.
I tend to give into fear.
I always end up in tears.
I always become the victim of myself
by giving into other's desires and wishes
because they are afraid as I.
But the moment you said goodbye
in my heart there was a knife.
I couldn't breathe and I froze.
I was afraid to lose what I had lost long before.
I was afraid to lose a person
who's could make me smile,
who's thoughts and care
made me worthwhile.
I was afraid to lose
someone who mattered to me,
somone of whom I care,
someone who was there for me
when I felt upset and scared.
I'm terrified to fall in love
especially with someone I barely know,
but here my heart is pounding,
my butterflies flutter,
and my mind is at a loss for words.
I can't let my fears control me,
and the happiness she brings me.
And I'll my best to keep my fears from hurting her.