Fear of Love

He told me he loved me. He looked me straight into my vulnerable eyes and said the most important words any human can say to another. He stood there, still staring at me, waiting for a response. Say it back. I couldn't. For a quick second, I almost said it back, but the words couldn't leave my mouth. Here I am, standing before the most important man in my life and I couldn't even genuinely express myself to him because I was scared.

Have you ever feared something so real? I'm embarrassed to admit it, if I'm being truthful, but I have this fear of love. This fear that I've had to deal with for most of my life. It's so easy for someone to say they love you and not mean it. I love you is said so often, those words aren't so special anymore. Every time I hear an I love you from someone, I wonder if they really mean it.

I've experienced fake love. A love that almost seems real, until it isn't. The type of love where I love you is said too often, with little meaning. I fear love the most in life because it is unbelievably hard to distinguish the difference between real and fake love. After all, most people cannot recognize the difference. This fake love isn't just received from partners, it is given by moms, dads, sisters, brothers, "best friends", enemies, and anyone else you can think of.

This may seem ironic, but I think people tend to give fake love to others because they have a fear of love too. They're scared to genuinely love another human being because of possible consequences. Consequences that aren't good. And that's exactly what I'm afraid of. The consequences. The result of love. The aftermath. I wish I could tell people I love them without feeling like my words are being forced. I think that often times people say I love you because the circumstances seem appropriate, not because they genuinely mean it at the time.

I'm constantly thinking about this fear that approaches me regularly. So, when he told me that he loved me, I couldn't say it back because a certain question is always on my mind: Does I love you really mean I love you?

This poem is about: 
Me
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Comments

Jules_FireGirl2.0

Absolutely relatable and beautiful!!! I love how well it flows from beginning to end. Not to mention, the way it is written makes it seem like it is in the minds of all people of the world at one time. Such a wonderful fear to have because if you fear love, you know that you really want it one day. I hope one day you find someone who will love you, and truly, completely, and honestly mean it. I hope you conquer your fear when the right person comes along. 

ashmelody

Afraid to fall in love

Afraid to get hurt

Afraid to get lied on

Afraid to not get the same actions & feelings reciprocated 

Love is a challenge

Love is beautiful 

Love is kind

Love is love 

Love shouldn’t make you afraid

Love should make you nervous 

& have butterflies

Love isn’t fear

Fear isn’t love

I love you shouldn’t be taken lightly 

Everyone loves someone unconditionally 

& in the back of their head they’ll always have the fear to fall

 

 

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