Fear In Me

Fear Thats In Me

I lay on my bed wetting my pillow with tears,

trying to remember exactly what I fear.

Is it the passing of time or the love that I’m missing?

Is it the mistakes that I've made or the fact I can't bring the past back?

What is it that I'm afraid of?

Why am I so frightened?

Is it the people I've hurt or the people that have hurt me?

Am I afraid of everything that I can’t seem to see?

Is it the love of a friend or the loss of my family member?

 What is it that I fear most?

                        Is it the trust of a person that I cannot seem to hold?

Is it all the memories of my past?

or is it just me?

Can it possibly be that the thing I fear most is the thing I can't be?

      The me that I’m with when I'm feeling sad?

The person I'm supposed to be? Is that what I fear?

   I think the thing I fear most

is me.