Fear of My Own Failure

Opening my grades sucks the air out of my lungs. My jaw tenses as I see the one grade that is lower than the rest. What about med school? Grad school? My mind is telling me that I failed, but... Others have failed worse than me. Why am I still mad at myself? It is because I hold myself to this stupid standard. Why do I belittle myself? Self-love is a foreign concept. It took time, but college taught me that nobody is perfect. An A in high school, is a B out here. I have to work harder to even obtain that A. I have fallen below my standard, but... I realize that I did the best I could. If I can't accept my small successes, who will? For a person in my situation, I am succeeding. I have worked so much to get to where I am. I now appreciate myself a lot more. I am not a failure. I have done everything to meet my standard, and... That is all I can do.