This Feeling

I am living with depression.

But I am not actually living.

there is this feeling

It is not a good feeling

not good at all

but it is not a feeling

I feel empty all the time

no matter who i am with 

or what i am doing

i always feel empty

it is like i am physically here

but my mind is no where close

I am breathing... 

but that does not mean

that i am alive

i laugh when others laugh

or when somone says something funny

but I am not actually feeling 

i am not feeling the emotions i put out there

what i truly feel...

is nothing

i do not truly feel happy

i do not truly feel sad 

i truly feel nothing at all.