That Feeling

I’m one for getting all types of feelings

From uncertainty then doubt and then to defeat

From happy then in pain and then to emotionless

From bored then to fearful and then, finally, peace

Uncertainty

A feeling that pops in my head quite a lot

A question I always ask

A question I still can’t answer

Am I being myself?

Doubt

A feeling that reveals itself every morning

A question no one should ever ask

And no one should need this answer

Am I really that important?

Defeat

A feeling that turns its head around the corner once in a while

When victory creeps far away

A question then comes out

Do I carry on?

Happy

This feeling I see often

When I laugh

And when I have a slight sparkle in my eye

Will it last forever?

Pain

The feeling straight after happiness

The feeling no one can change

The feeling no one understands

Why is it always me?

Emotionless

The time when you’re so tired of feeling feelings

That you totally block them out

Why do I even try?

Bored

The time you start realising how little people care about you

The time you think of all the different ways of preventing social interaction

To avoid being laughed at or made fun of

What’s my purpose on this planet?

Peace

A feeling I feel way too little

When I want no one around me

When all I need is my music, a book and a pen

I found my purpose