The feeling

I was the girl who never expected from the unexpected,

I was the girl who would only let herself down,

I was the girl who would feel uncouraged ,

I was the girl who thought that her parents hated her.

would never let anybody inside but darkness.

who would have trouble with her grades, friends, family, even life. 

I was the girl who wanted to be popular but instead hide in the shadows.

also the girl who would be shy to stand up for what I believe in. 

I also wanted to kill myself, let all the pain drift away. 

But never did it. I was always to scared to understand what love is.